Forged in Hate and Death

“Shadows of Tragic Despair” (July 1999) Endure an eternity of unceasing pain It only becomes more severe Each new day brings to me Intensification of suffering Mental anguish sending me into a frenzy Inhuman…carving my own flesh Mind and flesh scarred Only relief…self-mutilation Alcohol poured on my lacerated arm With a match I ignite the flame Flesh burning Unbelievable pain Prayers for death pass through my lips As the knife carves into my chest There is no meaning Suffer... “Forged In Hate and Death” (July 1999) This night of sickness The dreams are soon to end I shall cease to be alone Underneath the stars No more writhing On this rusted blade Alleviate the anguish Through slashed veins Ascending through the top Going over the stars Filled with loathing Reality is diseased All that can be felt Forged in hate and death The thousand tortures Left behind in the cold Under the grim night sky “A Growing Coldness” (Sept. 2008) Anguished screams Chill me to the bone Reflect the darkness within Mourning what used to be Beauty withered away Passed into the realm of shadows Never to return Caught between life and death Pierced from all sides By a blizzard of knives Swirling around my head Slicing my frozen flesh The journey long These forests so dark Obscured by mist Among jagged rocks Through forgotten lands Valleys deep with grief The burden of life, too great Unbearable hopelessness Memories fading fast Those times forever lost Tormented into oblivion Blood-soaked nothingness “Flames of Unholy Possession” (Oct. 1998) Cursed by the plague of life Centuries of torment Sickened, my body rots alive I want to puke this life at his feet The gift of your father rejected No more his light burns my eyes Into the dark shadows of Satan Dedicated to destruction To vomit upon the crucifix To burn the house of god To piss upon the altar To violate the wretched whores I reject what you have given I am not of this world Death to you and your chosen Reduced to ashes forevermore